Elizabeth
grew up in Ontario, Canada with her two brothers and sister. During
her early years, she felt out of place with those around her as she
had feelings and thoughts that were so different from her family and
friends. So, she comforted herself by withdrawing into a quiet space
inside herself where nothing was going on. In doing so, she closed out
the world around her. Even though she appeared to be a “normal”
child to those around her, she was withdrawn and felt protected in her
own little world inside herself. The phrase that kept coming up to her
that was a mystery to her was, “Complete it all this time.”
This did not become clear to her until many years later, when she met
Ramana, her spiritual teacher.
As she grew older, into
her teen years, this protective world was not able to keep her from
the conflicts of life. Many painful situations presented themselves
in her life and she could no longer escape them. The pain was unbearable.
She constantly prayed, reaching out in her traditional Christian upbringing
for a connection with God and for some relief from the pain. In her
search, she tried all the different Christian denominations around her
at the time. But for her, this was no answer and gave her no relief.
After awhile she gave up on God and tried to find some form of happiness
in the world, and those around her. She completely lost her earlier
ability to withdraw within herself into the quiet space she once knew.
At age twenty, she traveled
to North Carolina to assist a family member who was ill, and there met
her husband to be. They were married later and had two daughters. Elizabeth’s
search for happiness in people, places and things increased at this
time. She fulfilled the deep longing for relationship, family, friends,
and material things. And, yet with many of these desires fulfilled,
there was still a deep feeling of something missing, a knowing within
herself that this wasn’t it, that she was not complete yet. She
loved her husband and family, yet she still felt a deep hunger inside
of her.
The marriage began to fall
apart when it became clear they had different interests, and were both
going in a different direction in life. They separated and then divorced
and her spiritual search then began in earnest for what is real, genuine
and lasting happiness, inner peace and true fulfillment.
It was about this time,
in July 1978, that Ramana came into her life. He became her spiritual
teacher, and she began to awaken to the quiet space inside herself once
again. But, the difference this time was she did not have to leave the
world or withdraw into her protective “bubble” to have peace.
The significance of Ramana’s teaching, to her, was she could “live
in the world, but not of it.” Her worldly affairs and her spiritual
practice worked hand in hand.
During Elizabeth’s
years of initial practice she was involved in a very active lifestyle.
Her days were filled with working at various jobs, the family duties
of raising her two daughters, while serving AHAM as she could during
its beginning stages. This included teaching a class on Sunday for the
young, doing most of its administration duties, helping in newsletter
publication, assisting Ramana in programs, and whatever else was required
at the time.
Then, due to financial
pressures it became necessary for her two daughters to go live with
their father. This was a tremendously painful experience for Elizabeth,
as she was unable to adequately support them due to her lack of steady
income, and she was not receiving any child support from their father.
She has said, regarding that time and period in her life, if she had
not had Inquiry and AHAM she may well have ended her life, due to the
actual loss of not being with her two young daughters.
Self-Inquiry became her
moment-to-moment practice. The practice being, that whatever came up
in her life that would otherwise pull her attention away from the true
Self, the Heart, was actually used to withdraw attention back into the
Heart, the Self, and the stillness within. Eventually, the practice
easily and naturally shifted to just simply Being the Self, as It is,
in the Heart as the Heart, and no more practice as such was necessary.
In 1989, Elizabeth began
to travel to Unity Churches along the East Coast of America to give
talks and meditation instruction. Her spiritual practice then escalated
as she utilized the AHAM processes in meeting all the challenges involved
in traveling on her own in unfamiliar surroundings, driving a large
RV, and all this with very little funds. Her traveling in this regard
continued for five years.
In 1991, when AHAM moved
its headquarters from Greensboro to Asheboro, NC and opened the AHAM
Meditation Retreat Center there, she moved onto the center grounds between
her travels and fully dedicated her life to sharing AHAM’s teaching
with the world. She knew unquestionably that this teaching and practice
works. That it is a simple and practical approach to being fully connected
with one’s True Self, and at the same time remain vigorously involved
in an active lifestyle.
Over the years she has played
many roles in AHAM. She has been both the main cook and housekeeper
to Ramana and all the people at AHAM. She was one of its first buddies,
and was its second ordained minister and trainer. Today she is the president
of the board of advisors, is AHAM’s executive director and senior
trainer, and the trainer of all the other AHAM trainers. She also directly
assists Ramana in the development of AHAM’s programs, and oversees
with him the process of AHAM’s growth.
These various roles she
considers as gifts that have been given to her from God, or from the
Heart.
(See “How
AHAM Came Into Being” for the full story of Elizabeth’s
involvement in AHAM)